Once again, i had a crush on someone. When i realize that i was trying so hard, i figured out ways, i started the whole "kiss and tell" routine, i went wardrobe shopping every week, i know i really DO give a damn this time.

 

Luckily enough, i haven't lost myself in this process, awaring of the  principle that without showing the true face with a lot of openess and trust, a healthy relationship could never work.

 

Then i saw men taking no less pressure than women in relationships. There is fear, there's doubts, there's mixed messenges. Some of them could fairly qualify a drama queen. But why do we need all that acts to complicate things when our needs seem so clear if you could just see yourself as a third person.

 

Is this all just a phase? Could we only skip through it when we turn mid-aged with a brand new section of trouble called babies? or maybe future?

 

Other than this, I'm enjoying a fair life. I recently went through a very hard time at work, then good friends turned up just on time. They comforted me, talked me out of making some irrational decisions, and cheered me up. I did the MC job again at my boss's fairwell party and am feeling good about myself again. Plus there's always some cocky but insanely stupid girls in the office that just make me laugh and feel better about myself.

 

Don't worry about those thugs and trashy idiots in your life, as people come and go, only the good ones stay for you.

 

Life is ace.